Yesterday afternoon I attended our local Habitat for Humanity groundbreaking ceremony for the 100th home to be built/renovated in York. I have provided the construction drawings for the projects through my company for the last couple of years, so I made it onto the VIP list. After the ceremony there was a reception for everyone at a downtown restaurant.
Old Telemark would have passed on the reception; not real good at small talk, uncomfortable with people I don't know well, self-conscious...pick a reason.
New Telemark went and had a great time. All of the old phobias and fears were left at the door. Met new people and made some good contacts, and had requests from the H for H staff to become more involved.
My point is that even in the middle of the crap we are all going through, life goes on. We can sit on the sidelines, stay stuck and bemoan our situations or we can reinvent ourselves for the good of ourselves, our family, our friends and others we haven't met yet.
For any newcomers that have landed here and are reading this, I know the intense pain and despair you are feeling right now. And it may sound like a cliche, but it will get better as time goes on if you take charge of your own life, your own emotions and your own activities. Don't get stuck. Get out of the house. Surround yourself with good people. Move your body. Turn off the TV. Read inspirational books and articles. Volunteer to help those who need help. Do something; do anything.
That is all. Carry on.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
