Actually I have been watering the grass since he asked, and in fact I was actually glad that he asked, b/c he has been so out of it lately - he hasn't cared about anything. I just meant that watering the grass wasn't my priority and it probably never will be. My older son is a great help, the little one, not so much lol but they keep me on my toes. Honestly working full time, being 99% responsible for my kids the rest of the time, and taking care of the house all on my own, well I'm only just getting the hang of it. Its a big adjustment, and I'm struggling. Big time. So no the water isn't my priority right now - but I'm still doing it. That's all I meant.
Anyways, I appreciate the feedback. Would love to kiss him back on the forehead. I always kissed him goodbye when I left or he left through out all of this, but when he stopped doing it to me, I thought I better lay low, so I stopped, thinking he doesn't want it. So maybe I'll start again. Who knows.
At the end of the day though, you're right. He's been gone a long time. Still struggling with the hope thing though. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I am very close to just giving up.
