Tired

[Very Confused]

Oh my, Lonely. I know exactly what kind of pain you are feeling right now. My 6 year dating anniversary went unnoticed by either of us. It hurt like hell to not say anything, but I was trying to stay dark. It's easy for advice to be doled out. Everything is always easier said than done. I've felt the desperation, where I didn't want to take another breath without my husband. When I have collapsed in a heap, heaving and crying because the emotional pain was so horrible I felt it in my body. I have stayed in bed for 13 hours straight on numerous occasions. But I do have more good days than bad, and I never thought that I would still be standing for my marriage 3 months into the separation and after finding his dating profiles online. But here I still stand. I know when to say "enough is enough". I am not there yet. I have to follow my heart when my head is telling me it would be so much easier to give up and move one. Only you know when you are ready to continue fighting or throw in the towel. I read on here, "when you are ready to give up, give it 48 hours, and ask yourself again if you are still done". Surprisingly this puts things into perspective.

I think this is all a normal process we are going through. Riding the roller coaster until we say when. Until we can drop the rope and GAL, make ourselves happy. I can say all these things, but I have NOT done them. Again, easier said than done. I feel your pain. True happiness comes from within. I wish you all the best.