Yes, I am still here. I have not posted in awhile as there has not been much to update on. My wife and I are still living as roommates, nothing has really changed relationship wise. I continue to work on being the person that my wife originally fell in love with, but it is more for my self esteem then anything else. I never want to go back to being the person that drove my wife away from me.
The only positive change is that my wife has accepted a new job with the company that she currently works for. She will no longer be working in the same department or building as the OM. She is even considering applying for another job with a different company. I think this is good news as far as the OM is concerned. Doesn't mean that they can't communicate electronically, but it does reduce the daily interactions etc.
Other than that, I continue with the same daily challenge that you face. Living with an individual who makes it very clear that they don't want to be with you. No good nights, no how was your day, no how are you feeling today, zero, nothing.
I had lunch a couple of times with a women who used to work with me, she is just recently separated as a result of her husband having an affair. The separation was painful and tough going, but she is now starting a new life for herself and is in complete control of her future. Does make me wonder whether we are doing the right thing by trying to make the best of what appears right now to be a hopeless situation.
At any rate, I am going to keep going for the sake of my kids and ensuring that later in my life I can look back and not have any regrets about not trying my best to save my marriage.
