25MLC stop by please. day 16 NC. Well, I am just not sure how much more I can take. Maybe I am just being dumb and ignorant. A friend called to tell me she saw H at the bar where the OW works.
He had mulitiple beers and then quietly leaned in to OW and asked her how much longer before she is done with work.
THis broke my heart - again. I know I know I am to be GAL. But, even with all of that it still hurts. I am being honest.
I can't believe my H would do any of this. TO me and my kids. We have been traded in for a bimbo and beer. He is a man I do not recognize.
So has this been what he has been wanting all these years? Now finally got it?!
I am standing for my marriage or am I lying to myself? TO me there is still hope he will come back and wake up. Not tonight.
BUt, I feel so deceived and just thrown under the bus. Along with my kids and he doesn't have a care in the world.
I am also surprised how no one will confront him about what he is doing. Or, am I expecting to much from my friends?
Can I really get over this IF he were to come home? I like to believe I could or do I scratch the money together and file? Give him what he wants? I didn't want to be the one to file but maybe I just get it over. Woudl it really make some of this pain go away?
I am so hurt tonight. I believe I block out a lot of what has been going on to protect myself and then when I hear this garbage it is my reality. Maybe I need to not be so protective of myself.
I know living well is the best revenge but I am not feeling that right now. Haven't cried like this in a long time.
