Forgetting those things which are behind......

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Thanks for stopping by, PIB!

You are so right about forgiveness being a conscious effort. It reminds me of part of the marriage prep weekend we attended - they kept saying that "love is a choice." That you choose every day to love your spouse. I remeber thinking, "I'll never have to choose to love H." Man, was I wrong! There have definitely been times when I've felt that I had to choose to show him I love him (although I've always felt that the love is there.) Forgiveness seems somewhat the same to me - it's something I have to choose to do and pray about every day, or
it won't happen.

Something that has also been helping me is to pray for those who have hurt me - including OW and some others. This seems artificial to me right now, and I tell God this - he certainly knows the feelings I have for these people are not loving, but it's a start and seems to be helping.

Also, I left a few goals out:
8. (or whatever # is next )Help my children feel the unconditional love I have for them. Help them to feel that I am truly there for them no matter what. To feel safe with me.....
*Use humor to diffuse frustration with them and stop the yelling (I'm yelling less, but any is too much.)
*Act joyful with them even when I'm fighting "the creepies."
*Do not allow "the creepies" to steal my time with the children.


Thanks again PIB for your thoughts. I really appreciate you stopping by......