Reading over your story... wow. Deja vu! My exh! My story in 2004 is so like yours. Fyi: Statistics prove that relationships starting in the way your p & ow begin, are very rarely successful. I forget the exact details, but something like 97% of them fail before a year. Usually life span is 3-9 months. It was the case with my exh. His went nearly a year and they even got engaged before they crashed. I dbed my butt off. Pma, gal, lrt,... all of it. It helped me survive the most painful period of my life. Although I thought it did not help my r, my exh circled back around after his r with ow fell out. Much to my surprise, the very thing I had hoped for and fought for was his return. But there he was, finally acknowledging and understanding what he'd done and I no longer wanted him! It was validating and helpful to finally hear him say the things he did at that time. But it was all just too late for me. When we split, I did not want to do anything to jeopardize chances that he'd come back, so I walked out of the m with no $. In hind sight that was stupid! Especially when he first left he wanted to be generous as he felt some guilt. That guilt dissolved quickly though. Don't make my mistake. Based on my experience, take what he offers now while you can get it! Hang in there. You are doing a great job. Focus on what is important and try not to think about "them" too much. (I realize that's easier said than done.) Best to you. It will get better.
