CTH, don't get me wrong, I have tons of help. My parents are 0.5 miles away. My brother is 2 miles away and my step-sister is 3 miles away. Plus I have friends everywhere so I have help as needed, but the difference is XH has his help licit with him and never is alone with S. If he goes on a day trip OW goes with them, at home it is his parent's house where they live and so do his brothers so there is always help 24/7. Not help you have to call and ask for.
On the dating, I am happy with my life. S and I have had a routine since about 6 months after XH left so almost 2 years now. I am just noticing that I am missing having a romantic relationship. This is really the first time in over 2 years, but not rushing into anything and still not really looking because I am still nervous. Not rushing anything and just enjoying life.
S and I have kept busy doing this and that. We are having a yard work day today because it will be a cool day. Plus blueberry picking and some church stuff. My pastor is fighting cancer and it isn't looking good (it has been a 4 year fight and now they found it in his brain). Tonight my brother is being voted on as the next pastor and I will be the church secretary on top o being his 2nd right hand person, after my SIL. It is exciting and scary at the same time. More ways I feel "grown up" and older. Not that I am old at all, but one of those moments where I know I am maturing because of what I am doing. Tomorrow is a zoo 2 hours away that is awesome. Then this weekend is supposed to be hot so I will be getting work done at the house while S is gone.
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