Understanding simple things

[Lonely Room]

Today is the 4th anniversary of the day my wife and I met, and I'm feeling really low. I tried to imagine how I would feel, but never thought I could feel this low.

I just wish to send her a small message, saying that we have nothing to celebrate but still I wish she has a nice day. What I really wish was to send her flowers, a nice message, saying that I still love her more than anything in the world. But I know that she doesn't want that.

I don't know what to do. I feel so empty for not mentioning this day, that was the more important day of the year for me in the last 4 years.

Do you have some words that might comfort me and make me forget? Thank you.