Woke up with a little anxiety over my situation, the not knowing is tough sometimes, especially since we do still live together. Not knowing if a MLC or an EA is what we are dealing with. Thankfully due to DB and my DB coach my urge to snoop is being squashed. What good would it do? It would only hurt me in the long run. Just keep doing what I am doing and GAL
Got up to do a 180 and go for a walk this morning. H didn't open his eyes, just said "bye" which was a complete opposite of yesterday. Trying not to read into it and breath through this anxious feeling and keep taking the steps that I need to take.
After my walk I just couldn't bring myself to go back into the house, so I am drinking coffee out in my office and catching up on the boards. I don't want to do or say something that would be negative, and not sure I am strong enough at this moment. So I am re-reading the notes from my call with DB coach yesterday.
I think the hardest part is not knowing. It seems like such a whirlwind but in reality I guess it may not have been. So many times I don't recognize this person. Hopefully once I GAL I won't recognize myself either
