Back from vacation. Trip went well. There was one small incident in the hotel I wished I'd handled better. The ride home was pretty good. Really, the best trip we've taken so far.
Strange ending though. As soon as we got home, D12 went to a swimming party which had almost all of her classmates from sixth grade.
I figured she'd have a blast. When I picked her up she was upset. She said everyone separated into cliques. She's not comfortable in any and .... her whole life is ruined.
Wow, these teenage years are going to be tough. She wanted to go to XW's when we got home and that was fine. I was walking her over there and she was getting angry with me because I was saying she needed to care less about what others think.
Yes ... easier said than done.
D12 didn't like that. Really she wasn't happy about anything and mentioned she just wanted to kill herself. She again brought up the divorce and how she hates being at my house because I should be at her house.
God it was an awful conversation. I didn't let her go to XW's until she calmed down a little. She didn't calm down much.
I sent XW an email saying I was concerned about this suicide talk and again saying D12 should be left alone under no circumstances. XW has left her alone when she's sick and XW doesn't want to take off work. I hate that.
A big storm hit that night and the power has been out ever since -- so I don't think she's seen the email.
Last night was weird. It's XW's week off and she has the girls and I assumed they'd be going to her mom's campground. They stayed in town for some reason and D12 texts me that I have a book of hers.
Sure enough I do. She asks me to bring it over.
I walk over and the power is still out. D8 comes running out and asks me to stay. XW says I can if I want to. So I head in and we all head downstairs where everyone is reading by flashlight.
So D12 is laying in my old bed, I'm next to her with D8 while she reads. D8 was ecstatic that we were all together.
It was weird though laying on my old bed. XW sat on a couch reading.
After 30 minutes I said I needed to head home. I'd started a small fire in my firepit at my house and needed to get back. That was the truth. You can't leave a fire unattended. But I also needed to get out of there. D8 walked me about half a block, turned back and I watched her go back inside.
It's starting to feel normal.
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