Feeling Low

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There really isn't a whole lot to update about as far as my H goes. I haven't heard anything since my response, but I wasn't anticipating it.

I did send him a text today to let him know he has mail here and to feel free to stop by sometime and get it.

I had a good session with my C today. I think after this month I might cut down to every other week instead of weekly appts with her, as I no longer think I need to go weekly. If something changes I know I can always go back to weekly. I really do like her a lot and she has helped me tremendously. I've been in and out of therapy several times in my life but this is the longest I've ever gone consecutively.
She told me today that she has seen so much growth in me in these past 6 months, and that she doesn't have many clients who are honest with themselves the way I have been. She said she really admires me. That made me feel good.

I do feel good. Better than I have in a very long time.

I am proud to say that I have not done any sort of snooping on my H for a week now and I am so happy that I have stuck with it. Many people on here have said that once they stopped snooping they felt better, and I didn't think that could be possible but they were right. I do feel better.
I don't know...it might be ignorance is bliss perhaps? I prefer to think of it as not wasting my time on things I can't control.