Going N/C wish me perseverance/strength

[Queen_of_Swords]

I know I'm not really a new comer, but this is new.
After enduring my situation for this long, I had a discussion with my counselor and friends, it's time to go dark on my STBX.

I start tomorrow when he picks up the kids for his visitation.
I know how I will arrange pickup, I'm not so sure how I'm going to navigate pick up from his place, except to keep my lip zipped. not look at him and say little to nothing to him. He usually escorts the kids down to street level and kisses them goodbye as they enter my vehicle.

If I could and if it were reasonable for me to do so, I would cancel tomorrow's visit.

Sigh. This is not going to be easy.