Journaling again, can't wait until I am no longer moderated. I feel like I might repeat myself because I can't see any of my posts from yesterday
Had an interesting night last night. H worked late and then went to the gym and didn't get home until 8:30. I didn't ask anything, just reading my book on the porch, smiled and said hello. He went about his business and I caught up with a friend on the phone. By the time I wrapped up he was joining me on the porch. It was awkward to say the least. I still struggle with old habits and had to consciously respond. He was filling me in on his day basically.
This morning I did a 180, did not make coffee for the house and watch the news as I normally do before work. I got up and went to the gym first thing, and he was gone when I got back. There was a note on the counter saying "Good morning, hope you have a great day" when I got back. Certainly proof that the 180's work and what I was doing was not working at all for either of us.
I know I need to make changes and I am excited to GAL and make me happy. I hope in the meantime I can save and strengthen my marriage. There is a lot of work to do.
I have my first call with a DB coach today. Looking forward to it.
