I am putting the suggestions into play. Even though my heart can't let go, I have to act as if and move forward. I sometimes wonder though if my efforts to start my GAL are true to me. What I am trying to say is, I really have no interest in going out to bars and that stuff. I went through that stage for many years before I met my wife and to be honest, was very unhappy in that life. I always wanted to get married,settle down and raise a family (what I am doing now). Being a great father and husband, is fulfilling to me.
I know that once my wife makes the step to adress her affair to me, and her family, she will suddenly realize the life she has been living. I have been a loving husband to her dispite my flaws and she has lived a comfortable lifestyle. With my changes and the fact that I have kept them going, I think that with some time and a lot more effort she will realize what we have had right here all along, patience, fortitude, understanding, determination and most importantly forgiveness, will see me through. Hopefully that realization will cause her to rethink her actions. I know that deep down, she does still love me, she is just confused about it, and the fact is that her mlc, home daycare crisis are major contributing factors as well. I have not given it my all yet. I know that if we get to the stage of a separation agreement, I will refuse to sign it untill we have been to marriage counseling.
If we can't get through mc, then it will be time to move along, however I am still going to be a fantastic father.
I am going to repost a question I asked in one of my previous threads that I never got a response to... Hopefully someone can share their thoughts...
Me 45 W 34 W.A.W. 3K. D11 S9 D6 M 12 y T 13 y Bomb drop 02/22/2011 2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011 Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011
