Today is an okay day. It is hard when the person you love just gives you a short little bye when you leave for work. This is the same person that used to give me kisses and hugs and say I love you. I stay strong but it is so very difficult. I can see she is not acting like the same person I know and love. It reminds me of when I have seen friends going through crisis of their own. I really think she feels like she needs to be 20 again and play. I am going to take care of myself and our D.
The reason I am so confused is that my W treats me like we are a happy family just minus the love for me. She says she loves and I am here best friend and that she is honored to be raising our D with me. She just says she doesn't feel romantic towards me. I think she has lost sight of what marriage is about. She may never have truly known what it is about because of her parents being how they are. I plan on sticking with her through this and show her what commitment is really about. I refuse to give up.
