the situation you are in [censored] balls...no two ways around it
I think ian is right, however, there comes a time when we have to smack ourselves for doing the dumb things that we know we shouldn't do.
no one is saying to hide yourself in a closet while you rock in the fetal position repeating "I'm baaaaaad...I'm baaaaaaaaad"
rather
acknowledge that you obviously have feelings for him even though you might not want to even though you don't always
heck I have been divorced from abusive ex #1 (oh yes...there are 2) for over 12 years....I had to have a phone court meeting with him about child support and I was sweating bullets
I haven't heard his voice in 10 or 11 years...he hasn't seen his kids in the same amount of time... but
still
the fear was real
it was there
for 2 weeks before that court date I was snarky and nervous and everything else
you bet your booty I let him affect me
dumb dumb me
I KNOW better
it's that sort of thing
it's OK to have feelings for someone, even if they are a douchbag and don't deserve anything it's OK to want something that might not even be healthy for you
what we have to remember is that ultimately, we need to act on what is best for us...what will bring us most peace and what will advance us, not set us back. When we make the bad choices, we need to own up to them immediately so we don't prolong those choices and we can get back on the right road instead of meandering down "Bad For You" lane
