Has anyone seen my get-up-and-go?

[Dawn of Hope]

Thanks for the support and hugs, SC! (I was starting to wonder a bit if I had put everyone off, or to sleep!)

I never know how much of my bad attitude and difficulty getting things done are just a personal character failure and how much are due to legitimate depression. <sigh> People say, "Try doing x/y/z," and sometimes I manage the attempt, but so far either what I've done hasn't made a permanent difference, or I haven't even gotten as far as taking the action to try. Having been through this cycle more times than I like to think about, the next thought which follows is, "Well, I wouldn't want to hang out with someone that negative either, so I can't blame H or any of the other people who have dropped out of my life."

If anyone has any idea what I can do to actually change things--something that won't get lost in the inertia of depression--I'd like to hear about it.