Well just wanted to do a little update. I have taken as much advice as I could and have been really working on me. I've decided to keep myself busy, hang out with friends and open myself up to the world a little more and live. I have had little contact with my W for a while, until recently. She started sending me text's to have fun at my sports games, small things.. small steps.. but i was surprised. She asked why I don't call to chat and whenever she tries to call me I am always busy and its not a good time. I told her I was respecting her decision to want time and space. I did not want to pressure her with my calls and I wanted her to do what she has to do to make herself happy. She told me that she had a promotion at work and i told her that was awesome and i was proud of her. Her work has been one of the stresses in her life making her unhappy so I thought that this was a positive thing for her and any R we may have in the future. I told her that we should go out for dinner to celebrate and she actually agreed. We had dinner at a new restaurant neither of us tried before and went for a short walk. There was no touching or holding hands but i gave her a hug when we left. She invited me to one of her soccer games, which was today, but the other team didn;t show up. So we played frisbee with the dog and as she was leaving she saw me staying at the field still playing. She called me saying she thought I was going home and I told her I still have an hour and want to enjoy the day with the dog. I asked if she wanted to go for a walk in the park and after a few moments of a pause she said yes. So we walked about 45 mins through some trails side by side. Again there was no touching except for a brief brush, but no hand holding.. I really wanted to but didn't want to push anything. We made arrangements to have dinner at my apartment on wednesday and to go to the movies afterwards. As we left the park I thanked her for her company and told her i enjoy spending time with her and she said "I Know"?. i dont want to read into it.
I am taking everything with a grain of salt. She is one of the most stubborn people I've meet and I hope she's not too stubborn to be willing to reconcile. I have no clue what to do and don't want to force anything. I guess i will wait for her to reach out for my hand and just wait for the day. This timing is hard though, as i decided to open myself out to have a potential date but now i'm confused. I feel like i am walking on eggshells around her. I guess i just dont want to do anything to blow it and let time tell... patience is still key.
