I acknowledge that my last post is my issues. Although my W did send me one last email at midnight from her BB so was certainly not home, I have no reason to think that D13 was unsafe.
The next morning I was driving and thinking to myself that today was the beginning of a great future. It came to me as:
"If things were not exactly the way they are right now, the future would be completely different."
I have no doubt the future looks good for me. And while I still have my hopes, my doubts, my fears, whatever... if I was still hopeful that my M could be saved, then the future would look different. And I'm not sure that future would be good. That future could simply be "more of the same".
I could be in a better place... I do not like where I am right now... and that does not mean that I have to keep trying to figure out how to save my M. Rather, it just means that I need to continue to move myself (emotionally) towards a better place that I will like...
