So, I have done nothing. Just small talk, happy, light, no following, no accusation, no smothering.
I noticed when I did the wash, that her workout clothes were in there and they were damp with sweat. (sure enough, read in pheromones here)
My W seems to be in a happy mood, and I am too right now. .
Thank god I didn't pull the rope tight. You all saved me from a backslide. I choose to believe that she went jogging. I choose to drive those other thought out of my head. I CHOOSE to DB.
I needed to read some success stories to remind my Self that this process really does work. I know it's tough not to be a "doubting Thomas" when this journey is just starting. This morning in church, the priests sermon was tailor made for me. I had gone in to talk to him on Wednesday and told him my full story. Well, he had a full sermon based on the act of forgiveness and acceptance, and he was looking straight into my eyes while he delivered it. I know that my God was talking to me through my priest. On the way into church, I told my Dad that I didn't believe in prayer anymore because God wasn't answering my prayers, but he was. I was in a very dark place, and now I am not. I just had to listen to Gods words, and believe. it took me a while of reflection to realize it... I am going to send my priest a thank you note today, for his gift to me. God, I'll be glad when these meds kick in.
NOW, I need continue on this path and plan for the next step, (when it's time). So, if I am giving her space now, 7 days in, no R talk, no perusing, no neediness. What is the next things I should be looking for to move onto the next step?
What can I do now besides stick to the 37 rules to keep focussed. J
Me 45 W 34 W.A.W. 3K. D11 S9 D6 M 12 y T 13 y Bomb drop 02/22/2011 2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011 Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011
