The visit went great. Daughter and I had a really great time. She has grown so much. There's always this feeling of sadness knowing that i am missing so much of her life.
Yesterday she also kept saying that she wanted to visit 'our' house. my wife makes daughter call grandma's home as 'our' home but daughter does not. These are little things, but they do strike a lot.
Not in a good place today. I left early yesterday because my migrane was becoming bad. Wish i stayed longer.
No reaction about anything from wife. Eeveytime daughter kept saying that she wanted to visit me, wife kept saying that she could visit once she was lil older. I dunno what i was expecting her say. Maybe that both would come back soon ?
wife kept telling how one of her cousins and his family just moved to TX from NJ and how nice their family is. Apparently daughter does cry for me whenever she sees other kids with their dad. I am really sure how wife can rationalize that.
All these and thoughts about future is just bogging me down. I'll just need to stop thinking about the future and just live for 'now'
BITS M 38 W 36 D 7 Married 15 yrs W left for 6 months in 2009 W Filed for D 01/03/11 piecing now...
