Johnnie STOP! just stop. control yourself and slow down.
6 days!?!? and you're ready to quit? do you read any other stories here? do you grasp many have been where you are for months and still fighting? you are at the very beginning here. and yet you are making you nuts.
you are MAKING you nuts. NOT her. NOT OM. YOU.
you're here looking for the magic answer, and got frustrated when we told you there wasnt any.
you're reading random books looking for the magic answer and get frustrated because they're not there.
now you're on meds and getting frustrated they may take 2 weeks to work.
SLOW DOWN. get a grip on yourself. man up. put that spine of yours to work.
you are expecting results and you've barely started the process. you have your checklist and are wondering why it isnt working yet.
but you've completely ignored the fact you're dealing with another person who has their own agenda which has probably been put in place a long time ago, and you never noticed. if you ask her, she probably spent months working on her own checklist to get you back into the marriage, and you are completely oblivious to it.
it took a long time for your M to get to this point, lots of bad actions, lots of misused opportunities, lots of hurtful actions you dont even know you did. You cannot realistically expect it to be fixed because you did 6 days of DB.
how do you stop thinking about OM? you just do. whenever it comes into your mind, you must forcefully get it out. instead think about what you need to do. or think about pink elephants, whatever works. but its up to you.
stop waiting for her to do something, stop expecting her to do something, stop waiting for her to react. its all and only about you.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
