It's funny how your W's MLC triggered your own MLC. It happens. Look it up. One of the primary reasons it's an MLC for you ? Is how you're slowly changing your previous POV to match what you think right now. If the roles were reversed and your W was "dating" in the way that you are, I'm sure you wouldn't say it was okay.
So you want to date to help you move on. I get it. Then move on and file for D. What you're doing is looking for the same fall back plan your W did. The person who you're not being fair to is the person you're dating. If you're going to date her for the chance at a future R, then why stay married?
A part of you wants to get back at your W by giving her a taste of her own medicine. That coupled with the fact that you were hurt and had your self-esteem shattered. So you miss the sex and the comfort that a warm body gives.
If you see your life in the future without your W and have moved on, then sign the papers. Give respect to the woman you're with.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
