ahh I am so manic today this is ridiculous. I dont think I've posted so many times in one day before. And I keep coming back on line to see if anyone has any thoughts or advice or just plain support. I feel a tiny bit better now that my babies are tucked away safely in their beds, in OUR home. I'm hoping my day was just extra bad b/c it was the first time my little men were going to Daddy's new house. Hopefully the sting will get easier with each subsequent visit.
Okay people i need ideas for 180's. I don't know what else I can do differently anymore. Most of the 180's I started doing 9 months ago are no longer 180's for me, but part of who I have become since this journey began. But I feel like I need to find some new ones - hopefully to help ME heal, and if H notices them, well then thats just a bonus.
Oh one more thing (and this part always bothers me).. to the men on the board, is it a good thing that my H still thinks I am the hottest woman on the planet? I KNOW he is holding himself back in terms of getting physical with me again. I know most men can separate physical and emotional, but I of course cannot. Sometimes I think its good that he is still attracted to me, but then the rest of the time I think well just b/c he's attracted to me, it doesnt mean he 'feels' anything for me.
