25 Hi! Glad you stopped by. Thank you. It is an accomplishment for me the NC. And boy, it sure helps the PMA!
The co workers said that he lies to them just about where and what he is doing at work. He is the boss. But, they say there is never a clear understanding of what H is tellig them to do or where to be cause he is always changing his mind. Or, forgets what he has told them. I suppose it is hard to keep straight the lies. Nope. I can't do a thing about it but they volunteer this info. and to me it just gives me a peek inside his mind. Messed up for sure. He has started to tell a co workers what he - my H- has been doing the last few months. He thinks he is fooling everyone. By being secretive. Well, guess what. Everyone knows. I think he must have told him to relieve some of the guilt? Interesting though I thought. Hoping to plan a short weekend get away just the four of us. Don't plan to let H know. Unless should happen to hear from him before then which is doubtful.
I have felt like I am doing pretty well. Went out the last two nights with friends. But, I find when I am public my mind goes OW. Is she here? What does she look like? Silly I know but its where my mind goes.
I did read the After the Affair book.. 25 I know you said its the least of my concerns but trying to deal with my mental health on the OW issue seems necessary right now. For the most part I am looking and moving forward but I often wonder how deep he is into the R with her?! How can H ever get out if he wanted?
C told me that OW will soon dump him and chances are he will come back. So- I am second choice? OR, would this just wake him up? Any thoughts?
I know we aren't even to that point and may never be but just being honest about whats going on in this head!
