Life, the Universe and DBing

[LearningPatience]

Today's flavor: bittersweet.

The story begins last night. When S14s mom came to pick him up, we had a talk with him on why we were taking the internet away from him (bottom line, no trust). He went on a 45 tirade/rant/cry about how lonely he is, how awful the outside world was and how he'd rather just live inside his thoughts than interact with the world. Painful to hear all that. Had to have a glass of wine to calm me down after they left!

Woke up at 2:45 and couldn't go back to sleep. Went to running club this morning and found some people with the same pace and distance as me, so that was great! Ran by Ws house on the way out, and I was relieved OMs car wasn't there, though I don't know if he's ever spent the night anyhow. Sure wouldn't while SD is around. Ran 9 miles (yay!) and on the way back saw that she (or someone) had finished the siding I had taken down in May. It looked good and I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I'm glad she got it done in any case, no matter who did it.

Had C appointment to discuss S14 after that. C is somewhat helpful, but we kind of feel like she thinks we are exaggerating the severity of his sitch. One thing that did come up is that S14 is angry at W for cheating on me (he doesn't have any gory details thankfully). He has enough of his own issues, I hate that my issues are affecting him.

I just got back from a good friend's wedding. W got there with mutual friends right after me. Made a little smalltalk with her and we were near each other talking for a bit before and after the ceremony. We each complimented the other on our looks. Mutual F sat between us during the ceremony. OM came later and sat a few rows back. Minister went on about a lot of marriage type things and in the back of my mind I wondered what W was thinking. I was smiling and enjoying myself the whole time and am very happy for the newlyweds. It was also bittersweet in that it was about a year ago we S and all of our friends at the wedding know our sitch.

Now, just have to get through the reception. Faking it if I have to...