Hi Everyone, Im just going to through in the towel and give up. I cant take the hurt and sadness and no progress in trying to save this marriage. Ive done all the DB techniques over and over. The 180, going dark, etc. It hasnt changed anything. My H walked away after being caught having an out of town A. He doesnt know how to deal with his being caught so has decided to just walk away. I cant handle the silence from him. Ive tried so hard. I take some responsibility in our not so perfect marriage. I own what I think I have done. But truthfully I really dont know what I have done because he has never told me. I would anything to save this and have tried. I wish I could drag him to see Michele because really I think that is the only hope their is. But I dont see that happening. I just cant take this anymore. I wish he would give us a chance. He is not the man I married. I want to hate him but I cant. I have great support from our three children. I know as much as they say they want nothing to do with him deep down they miss their dad. I just wish their was a way. He is gone. It hurts. Beyone my soul it hurts. I wish these DB techniques worked. I wish I couldve had the chance for us to meet with Michele. Maybe just maybe. So maybe I tell him he won this one and wish him the best. Its not what I want but I am worn out physically and emotionally. You would think it would be alot easier to end an out of state A than a marriage of 29 years. I guess not.
