I am so lost... Please someone help me! 2

[Johnnieno1]

I can see your points both of you. I have not acted on any on my thoights. They are thoughts only right now.

I can only forgive if her A is over. Every time she goes out, anywhere, my mind starts racing. I am having physical anxiety symptoms manifesting now, and they are getting worse everyday.

At what point do I take action for my health and sanity?

She does not care about me, that's obvious.

I cannot live like this with the uncertainty. I have been as detached from her as I can be living in the same home, for 6 days now. All I want is for her to "stay away" from OM until we can discuss) and she at least tells me her thoughts. Right now though, I am paralyzed with ever worsening anxiety. I am just trying to come out alive.

I have discussed with professionals (DR., Priest, Lawyer, Therapist) to try to process my thoughts, feelings and formulate a plan of action. Until I am able to communicate my boundaries though, (I will not have 3 people in my marriage) I don't see the anxiety stopping.

Remember, I can't drive anywhere, due to my eyesight. That means every time she goes out, all I can think about is "is she going to see him?". "Where is she really going?" I have been working on myself to be a better me and am pleased with my progress to date. I will continue to follow that path. Also I will continue to give DR my best effort, but, without a plan to follow, I am barely existing.

The fact that my 2 girls are going to stay at my inlaws 8hrs away for two weeks today, is definitely adding to this also.

I cannot not have her here unless she ends this A.