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[Lonely in SLC]

I just wanted to add a few more things before I go to bed. I am 99% sure that my wife will go through with the divorce. Only a miracle will prevent this from happening. And even though I do believe in miracles, I just don't believe this one will happen for me.

Part of me wonders if this is for the best. I have read other individual's threads where the couple eventually divorced after months or years of trying to fix the marriage. It seems to me that the pain is worse for the LBS when the situation is dragged out. Don't get me wrong, I would love for the chance to still work on our marriage, but it reminds of peeling a band-aid off. The swifter, the less it hurts.

I am also scared to death of what may come after. I did not date much before I got married. I was one of the shy good guys that the women never noticed. (Why do women go after the bad guys anyway). Anyway, I have lots of self doubts that I have the skills to woo another woman. This is what scares me. I loved being able to share life with a companion, a lover, and friend. Now, I believe it will be along time before I get to experience this happiness again. Then again, I believe I will have a lot of trusts issues with women after this experience. GRRRRR!!!!! Plus, I truly feel like I will never meet someone as beautiful and loving as my wife. Well, the loving part is no longer true I guess...

I would love to hear back from anyone, I could use the advice or just words of comfort. Life right now is lonely, I feel like Tom Hanks from Castaway. I may begin to have a conversation with imaginary friends.