WAW, Filing as Fast as Possible

[aeolianchaos]

Happy Friday, everyone.

Not a whole lot of new interesting things to report on - got a haircut this afternoon. Have not had anyone other than my W cut my hair in almost a decade, so that was a new thing for me. Looks pretty good, too.

I've noticed that a lot of things seem more 'meaningful' than they used to.

Going to the coffee shop has meaning, going to yoga has meaning, getting my haircut has meaning, cleaning the kitchen has meaning. Everything has meaning and intention whereas before so much was routine.

Got mail from an attorney this afternoon. Thought it might have been divorce complaint, but it was a solicitation from an attorney to represent me! Apparently the complaint was entered in the system at the end of june although I haven't received anything yet (which is odd, as the attorney is only 5 miles from where I live). Not sure what that is about but I guess I'm glad that I already knew something had been filed. A solicitation would be a heck of a heads-up.

I have been thinking about Goals and what those could be for me. Just to more specifically articulate or define what it is I am hoping for.

Cognitively, I'm not comfortable setting goals for someone else - it seems like I'm taking the power out of my hands and putting into someone who seems to be kind of unstable and cloudy at the moment. Doesn't seem like a great idea.

So, I think the goals have to be for me, even if they are about how I am acting in relation to W.

I think in a general sense, they are going to include finding some stable work for the time being, developing a deeper sense of inner balance and equanimity, taking really good care of my body and mind, continuing with the 180's I've been doing, continue to make efforts to GAL and get in touch with the things about me that I really like. I will spend time this weekend working out some more explicit things that I can 'achieve' in the course of pursuing these general goals.