It will be 9 months this week since BD and I still cry. Not like I use to, sometimes it is only for a few minutes and sometimes it is for hours. I still have bad days and bad moments. The trick is to let it happen, it is part of your growth.
As far as the self esteem, write down all the good things you have done for yourself, your children and your marriage. Remember those things when you get down on yourself. One of the things I have heard over and over from my H is how he had to do everything, cook, clean, grocery shop and take care of our daughter. Of course this is bs, but I decided to list all the things I did, my H was a helper, he did cook and helped clean and do the laundry, but my H has never cleaned a toilet, a bath tub, and every weekend I cooked and cleaned, helped with the yard and laundry. He believes what he wants too, I was not a bad wife, we were a team and I was always appreciative for all he did around the house. I was not perfect, but I was not a bad wife. You need to look at these things and remember them when you start to feel bad about yourself.
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
