(((Girl)) I know exactly how you are feeling right now and I wish I could make it go away.
If you've read all my threads you know what a mess I was when I first joined and how I continued to be a mess up until a few weeks ago. Even though this is my 2nd marriage (and possible D) it's a lot more painful. My exh and I were so young when we married and divorced, it didn't affect me the way this is affecting me now.
You WILL get through this. This I promise you.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤