FWIW, I am very proud of you. I think the way you remained cool while she talked, was the best way to handle it. It shows you have come a long way. If you had reacted in jealousy or anger, then she would have either thought you had not changed any....or else, her mission to tempt and rile you about OM was successful.
The other thing that I am happy to hear is how you are filling up your time with activity. I know it must be really hard to suddenly be alone. However, I believe that once you are open to meeting new people.....I think that will place them right in your pathway. Noticed anyone else jogging or walking with their dogs? Who doesn't love dogs? And speaking of walking pets, there may be somebody in your neighborhood who are not able to get out and could use you to help out by walking their dogs. Just a thought.
When we truly give our time and offer our help to others (spouse is not counted here) then I believe it helps to fill your heart and certainly helps to get your mind off your stitch.
(hugs)
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
