I'm not sure how an affair would change my DB strategy. It would help me understand - right now I just feel adrift - I can't find the logic or reason for what's happening. At least an affair would allow me to say, "Aha! Ok. I get it now."

I'm not sure that makes sense.

H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11