XYZ is here, and it looks like I'm staying...

[XYZ]

Tough day for me today. I'm feeling pretty down. On the one hand, I look at the last two weeks and see such an incredible improvement over before that. On the other, all I have are words and very little by way of action; she still has not scheduled that therapy appointment and I have not yet said anything (I'm planning to on Tuesday if it's not done by then).

I find myself thinking: if before I didn't believe anything she said then why should I now just because she's saying what I want her to say? I guess there have been some small actions (a dinner invite, 1 ILY first, nice conversations), and I need to see that they may seem small to me but not to her. I need to get my mind wrapped around the slow nature of this. Still struggling with that.

The waiting is the worst.