I am so lost... Please someone help me! 2

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Johnnie, I've read your posts and I see there is one piece of advice that has been repeated over and over:

BACK OFF!

Yet you keep putting your hand in the fire. How's that working for you?

I would not send any apology in any way, shape or form. She knows you are sorry. You know you are sorry. The worst thing you can do right now is to keep contacting her. You are so co-dependent with her and it shows.

Johnnie, I know exactly what you are feeling. We all know, because we all are there or have been there. You have to believe us when we say you need to distance yourself and detach. Your emotions are still all over the grid and that does not promote good decisions.

Today is month 4 for me in my mess. I am just starting to feel comfortable with detaching from my W and living my life without thinking, "What will W say/do/feel about this?" It's hard work! But distancing yourself emotionally from your W and approaching your M with calm and rational logic is the only way you are going to come out on the other side with your self-respect, self-esteem and sanity intact.