LMH, i will take your advice concerning the sisters and the fishing thing to heart. I know better. Here's the link to my new post i will copy and paste it there also:
I fear i may have committed a cardinal sin. After hockey tonight i drove by my W house and saw there was a truck there. I texted her:
M: asked if i could come over
w: no we are sleeping
M: who's truck is that
she never responded to who's truck it is. I call and we talk and argue back and forth with me asking her who's truck is there and whether they are sleeping together. She says she's not sleeping with anyone. She gets mad at me saying that i've ignored her for 2 days by not texting her and talking to her, to which i say you can text and talk to me also. She says no one is there and i say quit lying to me, who's there?
We continue to fight and argue about stuff that has gone on in our M and and says she's gonna divorce me and take me for child support. She eventually tells me that OM is staying there but he's not in bed with her, our 2 girls are and he's either on the couch or in extra bed. I said you know that God says "thou shall not covet thy neighbors wife" and that that's what OM is doing, coveting you.
At that point i asked to her just listen to me for a while i proceeed to tell her that i've talked to the pastor at the church i've been going to and that i realized that i've spent my whole life getting it all wrong. About living with anger and being bitter, i'm at a crossroad in my life where i'm leaving all that stuff behind me. That i never knew what unconditional love was until i met her and had our girls in my life and that they've taught me what unconditional love is.
I told her that if i could go back to the first time that i knew i loved her, and i recalled it to her like i have before, and know then what i know now that i would do and act differently with our girls and with her. That i've been on the wrong path and that i'm getting on the right path, the Godly path.
I talked for at least 30-35 minutes and she hardly said a word the whole time. I could hear her sniffling a bit and holding back tears. I asked her to not close the book on us that our future together is so much brighter than our past.
