I tried to daydream, but my mind kept wandering

[ClingingToHope]

Drew, exactly. Now she wants to communicate?

Small, perhaps petty thing today. XW wants to put the house back on the market as a short sale. Even though I'll be washing my hands of the place in bankruptcy in August, I still have to sign papers.

So, I was going to take the girls to the Realtors office to sign the listing papers. But I was running late and it's on the other side of town and it's my vacation and I just didn't feel like it. So I didn't go.

Tomorrow, the girls and I leave for Minnesota. I'll swing by and sign the listing papers next week. One more weekend without the house on the market won't kill her. I noticed they already put the sign back up.

She needs another week to get it ready anyway. D8 rode her bike over there three times so I took a closer look. The yard is infested with weeds and dying. She hasn't trimmed the tall grass along the fence or house. She hasn't trimmed back the bushes.

It's a nice house that deserved better owners than we turned out to be. It is a lot to maintain, but it has sooooo much potential. That's why we bought it, wow, 13 years ago. It has no curb appeal in the state it's in though. Plus, short sales tax six months minimum anyway.

I continue to be torn on the house.

* I'd hate for her to be with another man there -- so I want her out.

* It's the only house the girls have ever known -- so I want them to stay.

* Selling the house is just another "finality" or thing for me to hold on to -- so I want her to stay.

* In her never ending search for happiness, or what keeps her from being happy -- now that the divorce is final she likely is saying to herself "if only I could sell this house. Then I'd be happy." So I want her to sell.

Side thing. My eHarmony account has about two weeks left and there were a few interesting women on there. Only one has struck up a conversation and she lives an hour away. It's nice exchanging emails, but honestly nothing will come of it.