Stop the Coaster, I want OFF!

[25yearsmlc]

Fantastic posts harrier, cat, Faith. Very grounded. 25, more insight from a personal source. Amazing site here.

Yes, all that makes sense 25, I think you nailed it on the head that I am NOT prepared for all this as much as I like to think I am. Lets add one more thing to the smorgessborg of WTF?

I have to leave tomorrow to go down South and help with my parents who are both not doing well and my poor brother is left holding the bag. I cant believe how bad it has gotten for my parents. Its a long story and trust me when I say, I would not leave If I didnt have to.

Wife is taking kids camping with her friend. Again, I am torn with what I should do about that. She wants to get out of town as she is so paranoid and she did have this planned.

Today BTW was not a good day for the family. We were supposed to go to the city to watch Green Lantern but she was so paranoid and close to having panic attacks.

OM was released from jail today and has conditions on his release.

The car ride with her was very tense.

There was awkward silence and mostly listening to the radio. When we got to the first town to grab some burgers, at Wendy's, she went into a small panic attack.

W: Dont park out front , Im not going in. I can't

W: I cant go in, please dont make me.

M: Ok

W: I dont think I can do it.

M: ok, as long as you are sure.

We start driving and she says she can make it. So I go to gas station to get her cigarettes and when i get back in car .

W: Sorry , I cant make it, lets go home.

When we get to our hometown, she starts to panic again.

W: Why are you driving so slow,?

M: There is a car a head of me in town, cant pass.

W: Go this way to my house.

Then as I am about to turn into her driveway.
W: No keep going straight, dont go in.
W: Turn left, and left again and again

W: Okay, let me out and please go as fast as you can.

Also, I know I have to let OW go, but it is difficult. I dont think my wife can love me. I just dont think she is capable of it. I think my life is going to be a series of psychological episodes. I do love her, I have to figure out what to do.

The above ^^^ described behavior of hers is VERY familiar to me with my MIL...I'm sad to say. Then I look at the highlighted part and...

I am VERY SAD (a bit tearful almost) to say, reluctantly, that I agree.

I could be wrong.

But 9, I am right when I say you deserve to be happy. You DO.



For now, i have to focus on my parents and my kids and hope my wife gets the help she requires.
9

YEP...

((( !! )))