Woe is me. Anywho to further my thought above about a change.
No nothing happend substantively. Tonight, my W and I were playing with the kids outside. I started taking a new med on Saturday for me brain. The first time I took it on Sat. Night, I was woozy the next morning.
Tonight she asked me if I had any more side effects. I told her I didn't, but that the med seem to be helping me a lot. I said I didn't know if it was a placebo effect or the actual med. from what I've read it's the actual med. It's really strang in that it just kinda blocks my mind from "going there." i.e. any bad place or thought.
She then said that I she notice a huge change in me over the past couple days and I really seem to be back to my old self. I said I agree. She then said, "I wonder if you had gotten the med last year, if that would have helped things.? I said "You can't say for sure." I personally think it would have and I might not be in the mess.
I guess I can see this change in her eyes...it's hard to describe if you don't know what I'm talking about...it's a softening, opening, etc.
Now, it's probably too late for the move out plan, but I do sense something is changing. She also told me that she was kinda in a funk today and she just wanted to be home to spend time with me and the boys.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
