She will never flat out tell you she wants back if she's not pretty damn sure of a positive response from you. Regardless of what you've said in the past, she won't necessarily believe that you will take her back.
Haven't read your many threads, just this one. I confess my lack of knowledge of your situation beyond this past month so that you understand what I do not understand.
That quote above is a really important thing to think about if there is even a sliver inside of you still hoping for a rebuilt marriage.
And, for what it's worth, I thought your ex was incredibly genuine in the 3 hour conversation that you transcribed (how do you do that by the way?).
I could feel her agony. I could feel the emptiness and the loss.
We deserve to feel abandoned and mistreated. But we also need to realize that sometimes people make decisions that seem right to them at the moment - hell, that maybe even seem absolutely necessary at the moment - not realizing how horrible it will eventually be.
And what's up with you and your mother? Your wife seemed to make it perfectly clear that a big part of her issue was with you and your relationship to Mom. I hope that's something you've been looking at.
Anyway, I'm speaking out of turn since I haven't been around for your entire story.
Just wanted to say how touched I was by the exchange between the two of you. She clearly loves you, and you just as clearly love her.
Those are theones that can always be fixed.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
