I tried to daydream, but my mind kept wandering

[ClingingToHope]

One more day to Minnesota trip. D8 and D12 are going to be together a lot so I worked it out where D12 is spending the day with friends. D8 has two friends over. We swam for 90 minutes and now they are playing with the DSs.

More fallout from Monday. XW and I have been exchanging texts and I'm falling into an old pattern of trying to point something out XW doesn't want to hear. XW doesn't want to hear that D12's issues, in part, stem from the D.

I got her last text an hour ago and was all ready to respond ... when I thought to myself, it's not worth it.

I am going to restrict all communication for the time being to "I will get them at this time or drop them off at that time."

I can't even have a text exchange with XW right now that doesn't just light fire to my brain. I am still trying to live simply -- without fear and anger. But part of that is living intelligently.

If dealing with someone tends to bring out those feelings, don't deal with them. It's like the arch-conservative co-worker I have who I used to play golf with. Well, by the time 18 holes were up I usually wanted to rip his head off. So I decided this year I wouldn't play golf with him. Paying hard-earned money to play when in the end I didn't enjoy it because of who I was playing with didn't make any sense.

Talking to XW either on the phone or by text about anything other than logistics just boils my blood right now. I need to get away from it until I can handle it.

On other fronts. Had drinks with a friend last night who said I should look into an MBA rather than a master's in statistics. I called a friend who got her MBA from a private college here in town rather than the state university 45 minutes away and she said, after factoring in travel, it was actually cheaper to get it from local college.

So there's more I need to check out. I have a firm goal to be back in grad school by fall of 2012.