I am so lost... Please someone help me! 2

[Johnnieno1]

Ty DG and Sandy

I am truly greatfull for the opportunity to grow a better me.  For the most part I was pretty damn wonderful before, but now... Even better.  

I will make other discoveries I'm sure in the future that will help me evolve.  I must say that right now I am definitely in the anger stage of grief.  That's why I am minimizing my contact.  

I saw my W briefly over breakfast this morning b4 I left the house.  She did not look happy, maybe it was the black makeup around her eyes that set it off, I don't know.  I'm sure she is in a bad place right now.  

I am not expecting any positive interactions with her for a while.  But, when we do talk, I will not react emotionally, I will be in control of myself.  

When she does approach me, should I defer the conversation until I am ready to talk or, simply hear her out and take that away?

Here is a list of what I have done so far to GAL

1. Went out mysteriously and not told her where.
2. Continued gym regimen
3. Continued diet (I have lost 39 lbs since Feb. Down to 211 this am
4. Say prayers and have one on one time with each of the kids daily
5. Kept up my share of the household chores
6. More physical activity
7. New clothes to replace the baggy ones
8. Virtually eliminated my dependance on her for rides as I don't drive

Here is what I am planning to add:

1. I'm getting contacts to ditch ugly glasses.
2. Taking the kids to retirement home to GAL.

***** does anyone have any more suggestions to make her wonder? 

I also need to find a way that I can deal with the jealousy, mistrust, anger of her A.  I am worried that if I don't cope with it now, it will just get worse.  It is driving me crazy thinking about her with another man.