Walking in Muskeg - Part IV - Squishy Rubber Boots

[Queen_of_Swords]

Journaling-
Felt much better last night and this morning.
Went out last night and had a few drinks with my sister. We had a long talk with her about my situation. I aksed for her help in dealing with some difficulty I've had regarding employment.
Have a couple plans of action to put in place now.
I discussed going dark with her. She thinks it's probably a good idea right now. She has been D and reconciled.
Her opinion is that my H. has lost little in leaving as things stand now, wtih me still being reliable, accomodating and friendly. I tend to agree. Except for seeing the children daily, he really hasn't lost a lot. Everything is just the way he wants it in his world. She had a lot of other things to say as well that I'm weighing and considering.

I'm not trying anymore.
Now I'm the one that's done.

Funny aside...he tried to call the kids last night several time but my phone was busy for a few hours.
So,he texted me to relay goodnight to the kids.

I've scheduled a counseling appointment for Thursday to talk about it with my DB coach, to figure out the best course of action and the finer details of going N/C.

Thank you all for your input on my thread and getting me through a very difficult and emotional time.