Why is that Gritter? Cause it shows intent? It shows she is not done? I've heard it all before.
She is/was angry with you. THAT is powerful emotion and drives people to do things that are hurtful, self-destructive, vindictive and _________ (fill in the blank)
It is the opposite of love IMO and is based in fear.
FEAR?
Think of this as water flowing. It takes the path of least resistance before it stops.
It takes courage to go against the current yes? You have done this.
Running away? Blaming you? Finding someone who doesn't make her feel that way? Deflecting her guilt? About you and your D?
Who knows?
Originally Posted By: 2step
Who knows what is going on in that mind of hers..............
Only she does. Her actions (not words) will give you more information. Easy to say you want to swim against the current. Harder to do it. And keep doing it.
When she says she is angry I would believe her.
As long as she is using her anger as a crutch then she is not there IMO. She is still floating downstream.
2 you have been on this rollercoaster before with her. What I am trying to say to you is
Stop watching her. Stop trying to figure her out. Let her do that.
When she spews at you now does any of it still sting? That is the only worth in having any of those convos if you still have not dealth with your own anger or issues.
If this is confusing to you just think what it is doing to your D.
Just LIVE.
If you can have these convo's with your W and you are still able to LIVE YOUR LIFE.
That is up to you. I couldn't do it.
I would need to create more distance. And that IS hard.
It is hard fought territory. Taking back control of your emotions. The distance. The detachment.
Don't give it up unless you know it is something you can trust.
Only you know what that is.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
