Its my life

[GAL Man]

I have been thinking about things today and have realised that W had sucked my right back in.

At the beginning of last month I went dark for 2 weeks, and had no contact what so ever. Then when we saw each other to swap the kids over this is when she asked if I would have her back, then turns around and says she was only asking. Then in the past couple of weeks W has asked about me again, who I have been with etc, then some other comments asking for my thoughts, whilst the questions appear quite innocent they were, I felt, fishing.

I feel stupid now looking at it, that the dark period was working, she tested the water, sucked me back in, got a reaction from me, then off she went again, now back to square 1. One thing though is that I have acted differently, and W has passed comment a few time saying is that the new you again, plus I have been calm and not reacted angrily or been bitter.

I am now going to drop the rope and go dark again. I want to do this now (not even seeing W when the kids swap over) for at least a month.

GAL activities still OK

The 3 days I didn't have S12 at the end of last week were busy, Thur seeing friends, Fri poker night till early hours, then out Sat day garden work (this is when W came round) and Sat night in town. This weeks GAL activities with the kids (usual stuff, Tue bowling, Wed Starbucks etc) plus Transformers 3D on Friday, and my brothers 40th (and 5 years clear of cancer) party sat night.

Not going to post so often over the next few weeks, just a couple of times a week, unless something needs sharing!