BTM,

I will not try to tell you that your feelings of anger are not normal, or you should feel bad for having them (sense the but coming?), BUT... wink

Your anger and your pain are related. You feel pain, and the pain creates anger. You feel anger, and the anger increases the pain. Sound like a vicious circle? It is.

You are attempting to seek your happiness through the things you do not control.

First it may be "if my W comes home then I will be happy."

Now it seems that "if my W is unhappy, THEN I will be happy"

The truth is, neither will.

Your happiness, if you chose it, will come from you.

BITS

Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.