I am so lost... Please someone help me!

[Johnnieno1]

I won't know if it helped or hindered until my w addresses it with me.

She was truly upset to be found out. She oscillated between no emotion, and crying, while we talked. When I asked her if she was having an affair, she looked emberassed to admit it, and she whispered in a soft voice yes. At that point we went outside to talk so that the kids didn't walk in. Again I kept my composure as best I could. I'm sure she saw a more rational side of me, but emotion did creep in.

I also believe that it was important for me to request that she END the R with the OM. She needed to see me stand up for myself, and she needs to be reminded that she is not on moral ground here. I know we both pride ourselves on being good moral parents for our kids, and she needed to realize that what she was doing is not moral. I know she would di that for me if i compromised my morals. Everyone can make mistakes, and if she can admit that what she did was wrong then, we can move forward. I do not expect to hear that for a very long time, but I know she will realize it.

Now, it's up to me to GAL. To be the man she needs now more than ever... I am going to see my DR on Thursday and ask him for some happy pills to help me even out the highs and lows to assist me in my journey.

Life is full of choices. When you make a bad one, one that hurts others, apologize, learn from it and move on, but don't repeat it.