I haven't posted in a while. Things are just holding steady. No real changes good or bad. H still has bee distant and his drinking is about the same...about 6 pack during the week and twice that on the weekend. We have briefly talked about it but he sees no major problem with it, he is in denial and does not see how it only addeds to his depression.
We spent the weekend with various friends and their families. I don't believe he is talking with OW and hasn't in about a month. I don't know if his current distance is due to depression related to not talkig with OW or if he just doesn't want to be here.
I am trying to let go and work on myself, stay busy, and stop trying to prove to H we have a great life worth fighting for. I still have times I wish my H would get out of this fog. I miss the way we used to snuggle, kiss, and hold each other. I think him being so cold toward me is one of the toughest parts.
